English Translation

39 disorderly in the open ark of the open stall; if now I am accused, I would have always acted cleverly - I must defend myself against it, for never and in no case have I deliberately stolen, I only took the opportunity when I could not resist the temptation. I acted without thought and without consciousness. I had probably lost every measure of right or wrongness in such blicheks. I found the way to my father ashamed of what I did to help us in our need. In autumn l936 I had to undergo a severe blind arm operation and could not recover for a long time. In the spring of l937, my boy fell ill with festering angina and double-sided middle ear inflammation and has since been in constant medical treatment. When he was two years old, I had to let him take out the mande-ls, during which time my husband had to participate in the fourth weapons exercise at the tsch. Heer. Over the next three years, Horst fell ill successively with measles, sheep leafs, whooping coughs, repeatedly with angina, flu and middle ear infection and was never completely healthy. During the years before the connection, my husband earned so little that I could only get along with the help of my father. In time, I could no longer bear the reproach of my parents that my husband no longer deserved, except that I had to realize that my father could not always and always only give, since my brother studied and wanted to finish. My efforts for a job remained unsuccessful. All this suffering made me a person who couldn't stop any more, so that after my husband found a better post and earned about 150th-- RM in the beginning (almost 5O.--Rl rent had to be paid) whenever the opportunity arose to acquire things that didn't belong to me, and for example food always in small quantities. We could not do anything for all these years, nor could we spare anything, on the contrary, had debts which were demanded more and more urgently. For a long time, our joy over the multi-deservation of my husband did not last, because on the first day of mobilization in l939 he had to enter and since then has been an enthusiastic soldier of our leader. I get 75.-- Rl half-monthly support and from the company where my husband was last employed, 55.-Ril, which amount I use for the rent. I admit that I could have lived/lived with my boy, but I had gone on a wrong path, and since no one thought about doing anything, I acted as if under a coercion, without becoming aware of my guilt, always without consideration and without any reservations. The groceries I took from my merchant, I used for cooking, mainly for my boy, sent my husband field mail parcels, I just wanted to make joy, I kept nothing for myself. I do not shy back from stealing two times more gruesome amounts of money to be able to pay old debts. No one can tell me that I have used the money for pleasures or purchased things that were not necessary for life. On the contrary, since my husband moved, I have not come anywhere and only live for my boy.